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Alter Bridge. Finger Eleven. Seether. Incubus. Anatomy of a Ghost. Who Killed Alex. Death Cab for Cutie. Atreyu. Funeral for a Friend_
- .Words. Words. Words..
At any street corner the feeling of absurdity can strike any man in the face.
And my words will be here when I'm gone
2003-10-20
AHHHHHHHHH *screams* I don't think I can do this! Last year I had HELP with costumes. This year JD throws it at me and says do it. But, he doesn't really take any of my advice. I'm not sure he's even considering any of it. Stewart threw a huge fit today. Costumes, lines, JD, everything was wrong today for her. For a lot of other people too. Your acting, your not supposed to dress how YOU normally dress...your dressing as your character. I'm trying really hard not to piss anyone off, but all it seems is that I just dont do a damned thing right! This dress is too ugly for this girl,shirts to bright for someone else, shirt not cute. It takes place in the 50's goddamnit! Then theres JD wanting me to go travel with them...if everyone keeps up the way they are I'm not going to be able to stand it. I really just don't know how I'm going to handle all of this right now. Theres alot going on, school, One Act and Haunted House collide. Dad,the monster living in my house, my parents, friends, relationship crap. There's so much going on...and I'm having alot of trouble in my Journalism class..it's becoming increasingly harder to think up articles to write. I really like the class...but I don't think I have the energy. And then theres that feeling I get every time I'm around a certain person. It's like one minute I'm his friend the next I've sprouted six heads. I'm not talking about garrison here either. I wish I knew what was going on with him, I tried to ask him but he just brushes it off. I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE WHAT EVERYONE WANTS ME TO BE ANYMORE! PLEASE GIVE ME DIRECTIONS, TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD DO! Tell me to go away, never come back. Just make up your minds, am I your friends amd I just someone convenient? Please tell me what the hell I am to you people!!! I feel like crap. I'm exhausted. There are 10 days until finals. Every time I walk out of the house I feel like all eyes are on me, and I look like medusa. I don't look how they want me to look, I don't act the "right" way. I just want to curl up and cry. I was half-way there today until people came in. Becka's got Jason on her mind, Casey..i dont know where casey is now or where i stand. As for karin and the rest, they dont talk anymore. I'm starving for conversation, REAL conversation..not this bullcrap. I want to be having fun. How come nothings fun anymore?
How soft a whisper can get...
When your're walking through a Crowded space
I hear every word being said
And I remember that everyday...
I get a little bit closer to you...
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- .i am.
16. young. girl. techie/actor....
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.i love.
- theatre. writing. music. dancing. reading. drama club. my friends. him.
- .i hate.
- discriminatory people. jerks. mean people. manipulators. mean guys. ap english. being sick.